Trying to fight my internal oppression by alleviating the depression
I start suppressing my negative thoughts about myself.
Such a taboo to talk about my mental health.
I’m scared of myself because I don’t understand myself.
Who am I.
I do not know but I do know that
I feel better when I am high.
Who I am.
Can be told after I smoke a gram.
There’s a high demand to demand who I am.
I can’t stand who I am.
I don’t know who I am.
I hurt myself. I am my own worst critic.
And nobody wants to hear it.
Retreat. Back into the hole in your brain that you put yourself in when you feel bad about yourself.
You feel safe.
You are far from safe.
Get out of your hole. Get out. Already.
You’re stuck in a rotting tree. Infested with termites and mold. You’ll get sick if you stay in there. You’ll die if you stay in there.
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Everything around you is growing
You should be growing too
You are growing
you will grow either way
Do not be discouraged if someone is growing faster than you, your petals just take longer to bloom
I don't know if you went for a play on words but worked ! I love play on wordas for example when .You wrote
ReplyDelete"I feel better when I am high.
Who I am.
Can be told after I smoke a gram.
There’s a high demand to demand who I am.
I can’t stand who I am.
I don’t know who I am."
A high demand meaning you get high for the answers you demand but also because the public demands you figure out who you are and you can't stand who you are because you are confuse in that adventure of figuring out who you are but not only psychologically but because you are in a state of being high you can't stand if you are high or off the ground....
Thank you. It means a lot that you analyzed my words and they resonated, pretty awesome.
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